[It's slight, but Tooru fidgets now that he's actually there to explain what happened to him, anxious to actually talk about it despite knowing that it was needed to make his recent actions make sense. He knows better than to expect to be forgiven, he knows it's his fault, and the past years have made that clear that he's the one that ran away from everything.
But he does as he's told, looking at the ground as he goes to sit down in the mess of pillows and blankets, tucking his knees close and wrapping his arms around them and looking down. It was pretty telling of how bad he felt, subconsciously putting a wall between himself and Hajime like that, yet also his silent way of asking him to be near him. Silently asking him to let him lean back against his chest. He never had been one for asking for comfort with his words, not very well at least.]
About what happened, yeah?
[An inhale, then exhale, readying himself to willingly remember that personal hell.]
For beginners, I wasn't completely lying when I said I was fine not coming back here. But that reason isn't because I wanted to avoid you or hurt you, it's because I get like this whenever I try and come back.
[There's hesitation after he stops, hoping somehow Hajime still could read him like he could before all of this. Could read his silent request.]
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Date: 3 December 2021 02:09 (UTC)But he does as he's told, looking at the ground as he goes to sit down in the mess of pillows and blankets, tucking his knees close and wrapping his arms around them and looking down. It was pretty telling of how bad he felt, subconsciously putting a wall between himself and Hajime like that, yet also his silent way of asking him to be near him. Silently asking him to let him lean back against his chest. He never had been one for asking for comfort with his words, not very well at least.]
About what happened, yeah?
[An inhale, then exhale, readying himself to willingly remember that personal hell.]
For beginners, I wasn't completely lying when I said I was fine not coming back here. But that reason isn't because I wanted to avoid you or hurt you, it's because I get like this whenever I try and come back.
[There's hesitation after he stops, hoping somehow Hajime still could read him like he could before all of this. Could read his silent request.]